Today was my 20 week scan... Pregnancy

Today I had my 20 week scan, today is the day I had been half dreading since the day I found out we were expecting a baby. Today has been the most emotionally draining day I've had for months.
After a rather restless night of no sleep at all. I woke up with a headache & on the verge of tears even thinking about the scan.

Luckily our appointment was at 10am, so after we dropped the bigger smalls at school & drove to our hospital we had 15 minutes to spare & we were called into the scan room at 5 minutes past 10.

I had lots of friends & family texting me, which was lovely but also made me emotional.... did I mention I was an emotional wreck? I decided to turn my phone off not that this helped me a great deal...
As I laid down on the bed I couldn't stop myself, the tears just kept rolling down my face. 
I had convinced myself something would be wrong... I suppose with the way H's scan turned out to be like, the thought that something would be wrong with the baby would actually be easier for me to handle perhaps if the baby did have talipes. 

I tensed my whole body up & as she struggled to get the measurements of the spine & brain not to mention the heart chambers... I was a wreck of tumbling nerves. Mr.H mentioned about H's Talipes & the lady swiftly tried to get a good picture of the feet. 
This pushed me over the edge... the feet looked beautiful. I couldn't believe how stretched out baby small was. H's scan his feet were so curled up they squashed into his face. 
The relief this baby was talipes free kind of took my breath away, like I said in the previous post I wouldn't of even been sad if Baby small DID have talipes. The feeling I felt was bizarre. 
That feeling that I couldn't of cared less what the baby was; I just wanted a happy healthy baby. As simple as that. 

The lady asked if we wanted to know the sex.... I just couldn't answer I just didn't care. My baby was healthy, happy & kicking like mad. That was all that mattered. Mr.H did say yes that we wanted to know, a good thing really as my two biggest smalls desperately wanted to find out. 
Bare with me I will share with you, but we need to let family know first. 

The scan took about 45 minutes & everything looks good. Baby smalls weighs 11ounces. 

We left the scan then called my midwife who took us round the birthing suits as at our hospital they've just  had a full refurb & now have birthing pools for women who are high risk. This is amazing!
So glad Mr.H took the day off to come with me. He's been my complete rock. Lucky to have him.
I had worried so much about today that I've now got the most god awful headache & my eyes sting...
We managed to get lunch in town then do a small bit of Christmas shopping for our smalls.

We got this card for E & H... Inside we put a picture of baby small & then a little message for E to read from baby.... I blog about that soon though. 

Feeling very lucky & thankful for my beautiful life. 
I can't wait to meet baby small & not have to worry about hospital appointments & I get to buy lots & lots of full baby grows with feet!!....

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